The Dreaded Winter “Mood”

Hi Lovelies,

First of all, this post probably isn’t going to contain any relevant photos – rather some from the winter that have just been recycled. It also won’t have any growing information or tips, so I apologize if that’s what you like 🙂 🙂 🙂  You see, sometimes I have this terrible attitude. In most cases, I’m not sure what triggers it – but let me tell you – it’s nasty. It might be the weather, it’s usually influenced by something I read online(okay, I read something on tiny blog somewhere) – but whatever it is, it makes me need to speak my mind. I have a habit of analyzing things, a lot. Some say that it’s a fault, but it’s helped me more times than it has hurt me.

In a nutshell, this post is about following your dream. That’s a topic I think about a lot.  If your heart is filled with good intentions, I don’t think there’s anything wrong with imagining what could one day be. Of course, you always need a back-up plan, or even three back-up plans. Everyone wears different shoes, too. Some people have support, some people have to go it alone – and trust me when I say it, that feeling is really scary. Though the road to following your dream can be long and frustrating, I honestly don’t think it’s unobtainable and I definitely don’t think it’s something you should be afraid of.  The worst thing that can happen is that you fail. If you don’t even try, then you’ve already failed. I’ve always felt that if you want something bad enough, there’s a fair and ethical way to get it. Don’t have a farm? Why do you think I drive around to nine different backyards during the growing season? Begging to grow some flowers on leased land? I’m not above that. I know that I live in a terrible neighborhood, and I don’t really see a reason to pretend like it’s not a less than ideal situation. Do you seriously think I enjoy hearing someone cussing someone out every time I open the front door? But nothing burns my biscuits more than having someone imply that I can’t make a change – and go after something else out there. So what, I might get tired – but at the end of the day, is it going to be worth it? I know for me, it is.

What works for me might not work for you – and I mean that in every single possible way. The steps I’ve taken might not be the ones for you – all I can do it share my results. In terms of actual growing, all I can do is share my results. My Master’s degree isn’t for growing anything. I’m just a semi-normal person who had something traumatic happen – gardening was my therapy.  Growing food and flowers – that what the only thing that kept me from going too far (interpret that how you like). I don’t live where you live. I don’t dig in your soil, and I don’t know what your favorite flowers are. I most definitely don’t know your story.  All I can do is show you pictures of pretty things I’ve tried (and even failed) growing, and share my experience with it. It’s ridiculous anyone could think themselves in the position to tell someone else what they should or shouldn’t do when they decide to follow their dream and do something that makes them happy. My journey is not yours, and vice versa. Your journey is no more nor no less important than mine. If I go out tomorrow and plant an entire field full of zinnias, I’m no less nor no more (I have no idea if I’m using these negatives correctly) than anyone else who’s ever planted a seed. “Zinnias are so cheap”. “Zinnias are so easy.” “Anyone can grow those, what a waste of time.” If I make the “ugliest” bouquet that anyone has ever seen, I personally don’t see it as any less important or beautiful than one that was made by someone with decades of experience. It was still cultivated and put together with my own hands. Regardless of whether it lives up to someone else’s standards of beauty, it’s an expression of my journey. Everyone’s journey means something, and to deny that is really unfortunate.

It’s probably best that I stop here before things get too long. I guess the abridged version of this is “see everyone as having worth, because they do.” Thanks for listening to my rambling. Let me know what your thoughts are in the comments – I always love to hear them!