So, this season I’m working on my transparency. I made the choice to do this, not really because I was actively trying to deceive people, but rather because the “perfectness” of social media online was driving me towards insanity. By my own nature, it’s nearly impossible to not find myself comparing how I measure up to others. Yes, I know, it’s not a good thing. Like I said, I’m really making the effort to work on it! With that in mind, I’ve decided to be even more candid with you guys about my own failures.
Currently, the hardy annual flowers that we planted last fall are an absolute disaster. I went into the process with really high hopes and expectations, but it just turned into a giant mess. Initially, things were going fine – not great. I used a thin 12 gauge wire to try to make cheap low tunnels, as I didn’t have the cash to invest in legitimate hoop benders. The hoops held up the plastic until the first time it snowed, then they were flattened to the ground. That was the first issue.
Later it the season, it rained – a lot. My basement ended up with about 16 inches of water in it, and the garden had about a foot of standing flood water. Admittedly, I was disgusted by it. Several days went by and it eventually drained. The result? 95% of the hardy annuals were done. Ugh.
Even though these things were totally out of my control, I still can’t help but feel the overwhelming sense of failure – especially when I’m reminded of others’ success in doing what I had been trying to accomplish. The only option is to try again and keep going.