It’s almost the new year. The holidays are always so fast-paced and chaotic. It is so nice to actually have a chance to take a short break and try to collect my thoughts, and even more importantly – plan out some of the garden related things that I want to accomplish this year. I’m not sure what it is, but every time I have a chance to re-evaluate my progress; I feel like a complete failure. I feel like I’m no closer today to having a home to call my own than I was four years ago. In reality, I know that that isn’t true at all. However, sometimes it is hard to beat those feelings.
In the new year, I’ll be growing in my tiny little backyard once again. I’ll be trying my best to turn this little privacy fence into something beautiful. I’ll keep posting here and on YouTube. Most of all, I’ll keep hoping that something good will happen. I believe that good things still happen.
3 thoughts on “The New Year and Feelings of Ineptitude”
If it helps at all, you being a pessimist is what gave me hope that I can do it myself! Even though I am a smiley, bubbly personality, *I* have constant thoughts of how I’m a failure, everything I do is a failure, etc. Seeing you feel that way *and* still try stuff *and* have things actually grow (!!) has really made me feel like I can! I guess I thought I needed to “believe in myself” or whatever to succeed- turns out, I don’t! Haha. So, here’s to hard work over negative thoughts! Happy New Year! I think you’re “doing” a lot more than you realize. 😉
Sometimes its so hard to stay in the right frame of mind, especially when I start comparing myself to other flower farmers and youtubers and people who are seemingly perfect. But, we’re all different – that’s really the beautiful part! Thanks so much for your comment 🙂
You are a huge inspiration to me! This is the first year i have tried growing flowers and I’ve failed at so much it’s ridiculous. But I love your trial and error attitude and I am a huge fan!